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A Game of Inches

A Game of Inches

April 2, 2014
Posted in: Lyme Disease, Mastheads | Reading Time: 3 minutes


Anyone can end up in hell: by the choices you make or by the luck of the lottery. Since nobody's going to reach in to pluck you out of hell and plop you into paradise, you have two choices:  stay there and be miserable or claw your way out---one inch at a time. That clawing thing sounds much more fun. 

Living with and treating Lyme disease sends you down some dark roads. It dumbs you down so much at times I felt like my IQ dropped 30 points. And Internet, I don't even have 3 points to spare. Yet, lately I've noticed the most subtle of changes in the right direction. My dog walks are getting longer and I'm not in excruciating pain when I squat down to reach the lower shelf at the grocery store. I picked up my camera the other day after months of neglect (because I actually forgot how to use it), and behold, the shots I intended actually appeared. (That's Loki blown out behind the wild flowers on Nitwit Trail.) I even caught myself multi-tasking yesterday. 


In treating Lyme, every little adjustment makes a huge difference, in either direction. When I first got diagnosed last year, I told myself "Never another bug bite again," and doused my clothing in Deet on a walk in the woods. Then I broke out in a rash for weeks. That was just one early lesson in how Lyme disease  prevents me from metabolizing toxins the way a healthy person can.  It's taken me a year to learn that the inches toward recovery or regression are all around me. Every choice I make, every piece of food I put in my mouth, every product I use and every amount of energy I spend, matters.

In the last year, I've had about 3 glasses of wine. I don't miss the alcohol, but I miss the ritual of pairing wine with cuisine. I know that alcohol is just one more stress on the liver and its got enough to handle. The wine can wait. Besides, it gets better with age. That is, if I can keep Mr. Wild Dingo out of the wine cellar.


I'm still on a learning curve for managing the side effects of treatment. They aren't pretty.  Yet, my eyes grow sleepy at night, as they should, for the first time in over 6 months, and I'm working hard to keep it that way.

Realistically, I won't be surprised if and when I have a set back. But I'm in this to win, fighting for every little inch of improvement.

After all, Lyme Disease or not, life is just a game of inches.


A Game of Inches
April 2014



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7 comments on “A Game of Inches”

  1. Those are beautiful photos that make your point perfectly (depth of field was probably millimeters). I'm glad you're seeing improvement. I've thought of you in the past 6 wks as I've developed cluster migraines, which leave me with an IQ well below normal (the cause is still not clear). It is truly disconcerting. I can only imagine how rough this long road has been for you.

  2. Great photos, and I'm very glad to hear you are still fighting the good fight. It might suck at times (or most of the time), but kudos for recognizing that small victories aren't so small!

    -Dr. Liz

  3. We think of you often and hope that those inches mount up to feet sooner rather than later. What a tough road you have had to crawl - keep plodding on and you have my prayers to boost you along the way.

    The OP Pack Mom

  4. So glad to hear you are sleeping better. That's one thing that will help your brain get on the right track. Beautiful photos. Keep posting. Your honest words will mean a lot to other people with lyme.

    Mango Momma

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